Date:	2006-05-03 16:23
Subject:	What an impact
Security:	Public
Mood:	grateful

Today was my last Educational Psychology class and I'm not going to lie it makes me really upset. That class was by far my favorite in college and I might even go as far to say ever. And my Professor Dr. Kelly...I honestly loved him and he will always be one of my favorite teachers ever...it's hard to say who my favorite teacher has been, but I know for sure he is one of them and if I really think about maybe even the one.

Today towards the end of class he read us a speech he gave at the College of Education graduation ceremony because he said the things he said in it he wanted us to hear. As I sat there in class listening to him read the speech I found myself holding back tears and as soon as I blinked those tears that were forming at the edge of my eyes waiting to flow over did. It just really made me see how much I want to be a teacher. It also showed what an amazing impact Dr. Kelly has had on me and so many other students that I can only hope I will be able to do the same. After class I had to quickly walk to my next class and the whole way there I was biting my lip to keep from crying. If I hadn't been thinking so much about not crying and about how I was feeling instead I am sure I would of broke down into tears.

I wasn't one of the people to participate in class and I rarely talked, but that didn't matter. Dr. Kelly still knew me and would walk into the room and with a smile on his face say "Hi Kerry!" and I honestly can't even begin to explain how much of an effect that had on me. A simple hello and knowing my name meant the world to me.

I will always remember that class and what it did for me and how it brought me to tears because it let me see the passion I have for becoming a teacher.

I will never forget the way Dr. Kelly would ask me to close the door every class. Either with a smile and a simple "Kerry" or a wink...but whatever it was it always made me smile.

Oh I want to be a teacher more then anything...

Date:	2006-04-30 20:21
Subject:	So close
Security:	Public
Mood:	just a bit stressed

So I should really be either studying or writing a paper right now, but of course I am not so I decided to write in here instead. I can't believe in less then 2 weeks I will be home and my freshman year of college will be over...insane! I made it through though and it was a blast for sure. I made some of the most amazing friends in the world, but also kept my friendships from home going strong. I would just like to say a thank you to everyone from home who through a late night convo, random phone call, visit, "I love you", "I miss you", big hug, or letter in the MAIL, made this first year of college not seem so scary...especially the first few months. You are all the best friends I could ever ask for and I love you all from the bottom of my heart. There is one person I would like to give an extra special thanks to and thats my Soulmate because without her I would be a wreck and she is the one person who ALWAYS understands me...that's pretty much why we are soulmates hehe. So Soulmate thank you for being one of the best friends in the whole world...yahoo!

So right now I am REALLY confused about something and I honestly don't know what to do about it. I'm scared...

Oh and I do NOT like fake people. Please learn to be yourself because I don't think I ever really knew you at all.

Let's also remember what a small world this really is...no lies ok?

Well I really need to write this paper and then it's time for Grey's Anatomy...oh how I love that show. Y'all have a wonderful week...I love you

Date:	2006-03-31 11:42
Subject:	Remember to love!
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

Let's see what do I have to say...

I love to flirt...maybe too much and maybe with people I know I shouldn't.

I miss some people so much. I guess I always had a feeling this would happen when I left for college, but now that I can see it and feel it I don't like it at all. I always wonder if there was something more I could do to keep things from slipping like this...but is it just me? It will all be ok though, I know.

Last night it was raining and I loved it. The sound of the rain is so relaxing. It made me happy for sure. It was one of those rains I wanted to go out and dance in because the air was so warm and it just smelt like spring...so beautiful.

Stay strong. You guys will make it through this. I have so much faith in all of you. It will be amazing...just like all of you are.

I'm not in the mood to go to my last class. 2:30 on a Friday...who wants to go to that...NOT ME! hehe

I miss chocolate! hehehe!

I love to laugh. I love to smile. I love to make other people laugh and smile. I love hugs. I love pizza. I love my family. I love my friends. I love sleeping in. I love waking up to the sun shinning in my room. I love laying under the stars. I love gentle warm breezes. I love hot showers. I love swimming. I love bon fires in the summer. I love catching lighting bugs. I love when I get freckles across my cheeks and nose. I love to dance. I love new clothes. I love eating dinner with my family. I love Sundays at my Gramma's. I love laughing so hard I cry or pee. I love TV. I love being emotional. I love when my mom calls me Baby Girl...or one of her many other crazy nicknames for me. I love nicknames. I love Easter egg hunts. I love Christmas Eve. I love making snow angles. I love the smell of rain. I love my bed. I love orange pop. I love dark chocolate. I love talking with Al for hours and hours about anything and everything. I love knowing I can go away but come home and have it feel ok. I love the smell of home cooking. I love BBQ's. I love fireworks. I love going to Sox games with the fam. I love getting mail. I love markers. I love little kids and how they can make you appreciate the little things. I love laying in bed and falling asleep right away. I love crazy dreams. I love meeting new people. I love remembering the old times. I love acting like I'm 3. I love talking with my friends and having some of the best conversations of my life. I love mission trips and the feeling they give me. I love to sing. I love popping zits (kinda gross I know). I love being by myself sometimes. I love getting random phone calls. I love having the best big sister and little brothers ever. I love that Pat isn't my annoying little brother anymore and that Mikey will always be my baby. I love to cuddle. I love puppies. I love being Irish. I love the sunshine. I love playing outside. I love naps. I love cookies just out of the oven. I love that when I'm home my Gram will bake something special just for me. I love my birthday. I love birthdays. I love Thanksgiving dinner. I love laughing out loud when I am sitting in my room by myself. I love taking pictures. I love looking at pictures. I love helping my friends. I love when my dad and Mike laugh so hard at something at TV that I just start laughing even though I'm not watching it. I love that my best friends can come to my house and feel at home. I love going to the Pluhcars. I love playing pin ball with Al and never paying attention to the score because our conversations are more important. I love that my Soulmate always understands me. I love holding hands with someone and having it feel just right. I love when there is nothing to do, but I'm with the some of the best friends in the world so it doesn't really matter. I love going to Taco Hut with Bee and Stef. I love coming home and finding little presents from Mike in my room. I love sharing a room with Bee. I love being random. I love being me. I love saying I love you and meaning it with everything inside of me. Pretty much I just love my life.

So I'm not sure why I just wrote some of the things I love, but I started and couldn't stop hehe.

I LOVE YOU

Date:	2006-03-21 22:52
Subject:	Let me see those teeth!
Security:	Public
Mood:	SMILE

Smile

Honestly everyone just smile...maybe laugh a little too.

And hey if you're up to it maybe even let yourself be in a good mood today.

I know we all have bad days and complain, but don't let those bad days keep the good ones from coming in.

So yeah smile...

Date:	2006-03-19 23:02
Subject:	Fuck you...bitches
Security:	Public
Mood:	pissed off

I am so fucking pissed off right now its not even funny.

Fuck all you selfish people.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Oh and ps I'm over him so fuck all you bitches

Date:	2006-03-14 22:23
Subject:	I miss you..
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

Tonight's one of those nights where I feel like anything will make me burst into tears.

Why is it when I am home I miss you the most?

My throat hurts soooo bad right now...it's not fun.

Last night I was in a milk chugging contest...it was so gross and so hard. I couldn't do it, but I tried my best. A gallon of milk is A LOT to drink in one hour hehe!

Happy Birthday Sarah and Adam...yahoo Birthdays!

I'm trying not to focus so much on people's flaws and I can only hope people will do the same for me.

For real my throat hurts so bad I almost want to cry..but I wont hehe. It better feel ok by tomorrow that's all I have to say cuz I'm sick of this.

Date:	2006-03-07 13:47
Subject:	Back to the days...
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick

I can't wait for spring break...I want to be home so bad right now.

My hair is super curly today and it probably will be for the rest of the week cuz I am so awesome and left my straightener at home.

I need something to happen because right now things just don't feel right. Every night I go to pray, but nothing comes out...and it's not that I am not grateful for everything I have in my life and all the amazing people that are part of it, but honestly I just lay in my bed and nothing happens. I just don't understand how less then six months ago my faith was so strong and now I feel like it's all slipping away. I guess I have no one to blame but myself...I never thought this part of my life would change when I came to college. I miss it.

The last Boy Meets World is on right now...it will probably make me cry hehe. Oh man me and Bee had this HUGE group of people over to watch it over Christmas break at like 1 in the morning...it was great. Oh I tricked y'all it's on tomorrow which is a bummer for me because I have class all day.

I slept through ballet today...being sick is no fun.

Well this was random hehe...I hope everyone is having a wonderful day...especially my Birthday Buddies...Steffers (21 yeah yeah!!), Eddie, and my twins Tony and Mandy!!

I love you!

PS- Me and Al are awesome and SO amazing at entertaining ourselves..I love it! And I love Al of course!

Date:	2006-02-24 19:21
Subject:	Grilled Cheese
Security:	Public
Mood:	lil annoyed but it's all good

I'm kinda annoyed right now. I have a list on things I am annoyed with...they aren't anything big, but I think I'm just in one of those moods where everything gets to me.

I'm annoyed with...
-People who live on the 4th floor or lower and take the elevator up and down...come on people..suck it up and walk
-People who sit behind me in class and talk the whole time...honestly why come if you are going to talk because I know you aren't paying attention at all.
-People who try way too hard and push for something that isn't there.
-People who only think of themselves.
-People not cleaning up after themselves.
-myself and how I complain so much hehe!

I wish I had some Little Debbie cakes. I totally saw them in the Market Place and I have no idea why I didn't just buy them.

I don't know why I'm writing in this right now...

AHH I miss Al and she should totally be here right now...I was SO looking forward to this weekend more then like anything...I need my bestest friend!

Well I miss you and I love you...

Date:	2006-02-04 15:47
Subject:	All we want is a little RESPECT
Security:	Public
Mood:	MEGA annoyed

So the past few days I have had some convos with two of my all time favorite girls (Albert and my Soulmate)about how dancers don't get the respect they deserve.

I really don't think people understand just how hard it is to dance. It's so much more then jumping up and down, shaking your hips, and throwing in a few jazz squares and grape vines here and there. Anyone can do that, bu dancers do so much more. We put so much into our dances and it just kinds of sucks because some people think it's so easy. It's not...come take one class and then you can talk.

I can't play sports and I have so much respect for the people who do. I know it's hard and they put a lot into what they do. I can see it and I think it's amazing to watch them put all of their hard work out there.

So next time before you go saying dancing is so easy or go telling everyone and their mother that they are great dancers please think about those people out there who make dancing part of their life, those people who put hours and hours each week into this amazing art form, those people who don't just dance for fun, but dance because they love it and have a passion for it deep inside them.

Respect...

Date:	2006-01-23 22:49
Subject:	I'm the one who wants to be with you...
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy

I need to find me some lovin...and fast.

I'm starting to think something is wrong with me and I'm beginning to question everything about myself.

I feel extra fat lately.

I don't really know why I'm writing in here because I was just going to kind of stop.

My Soulmate is the best. I love her and you should too.

Find yourself a lover and move on.

Live your life to the fullest... put yourself out there... have fun... be crazy... make new friends... flirt... laugh... dance... and be you.

Reason why I am like an old man:
1. I freakin sweat like one
2. I want to go to bed at like 7

I hit my leg with a bowling ball the other night...my high score of the night was a 74...yeah!

I frustrated with you and the way you talk to me.

TV makes me happy.

I'm done..this was stupid. Goodnight I love you

Date:	2005-12-22 08:27
Subject:	Oh dear me!
Security:	Public
Mood:	nervous

I'm getting my wisdom teeth out...in like 1/2 a hour! Oh no!! Well that's all I have to say...I hope I'm not in too much pain.

Bye friends...I love you

Date:	2005-12-16 11:04
Subject:	There's no place like home!
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper

I'm home and I'm happy!

I love you and we should hang out.

Happy day everyone!

Date:	2005-12-13 17:50
Subject:	Soulmates!!!!!!!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic

OMG OMG!!! Ok so my name is Kerry Kathleen right...and that is part of the many reasons of why me and Kathleen are Soulmates. WELL....something amazing happened tonight and I would like to share it with the world...

So I have a brother named Patrick and so does Kathleen sooo I IMed her saying that our brothers having the same name is just something else to add to the list of reasons why we are soulmates and then..............!


Under a ROck31: is your other brother's name michael?
Under a ROck31: cuz that's pat's middle name
Under a ROck31: and that would be too cool
kerryk623: omg yes!!!!
Under a ROck31: ahhhh!!
kerryk623: omg!!!!!
Under a ROck31: oh man this was SO meant to be!!
kerryk623: this is amazing
kerryk623: im like freaking out right now haha
Under a ROck31: i'm like in shock, this is too crazy!!
kerryk623: i know omg
kerryk623: ahhh!!
Under a ROck31: haha oh man, we rock so hard
kerryk623: yeah we do!

AMAZING...I KNOW!!! Don't even try to tell us we aren't soulmates because this kind of stuff doesn't just happen...it's FATE! Oh man this totally just made my day...maybe even my life!

Date:	2005-12-12 19:07
Subject:	Crrrrrazy!
Security:	Public
Mood:	stressed

I'm going insane. Next time you all see me I will probably be officially insane. Cool huh? But one cool/awesome/amazing thing is that after tomorrow I am FREE! Do you know how wonderful/fantastic that is going to feel?! Ah I can't wait.

Finals are stupid and I stress way too much about them. Good thing I don't study all the time because it makes me super sleepy haha!

I am SO excited to come home...ahhhh I can't wait!

Ok back to studying...

PS whoever wrote a comment on my last journal entry please look at it again...thank you!

I can't sleep...

Some days I really wish I had a boyfriend and today is one of those days. Someone to care about me, someone to care about, someone to hold me in their arms, someone to hug and kiss...and not just anyone...someone hehe. Oh well I guess I'll keep chugging down this single road...I mean I've been here for awhile you'd think I'd be used to it by now hehe.

I want to go to bed, but the sleep thing just isnt happening for me right now and I'm not sure why. Maybe I'm just thinking too much right now. BLAH! Yeah I'll keep on smiling and try my best to be happy hehe!

I LOVE YOU!

P.S.- Soulmate I love you...and I looove that I know I can always count on you to understand me. Youre one of the best friends in the whole world!!

Date:	2005-12-05 20:07
Subject:	Speeches are stupid just like you hehe...joking you aren't stupid!
Security:	Public
Mood:	geeky

Anyone want to write a speech for me and then give it tomorrow at 11:30?! I know you do!! Ah I just can't get myself to work and it's annoying. Maybe I'll take a quick shower and then start. No I should just do it now right? Hehe I'm starting to go insane from all this stress!

Dear Winter Break and Christmas,

Please get here as soon as you can...please. Thank you and have a wonderful day!

Love,
Kerry

Well I don't really have anything to say I'm just wasting time like always.

I LOVE YOU!!

Date:	2005-12-02 14:58
Subject:	Well there’s nothing I can do...I only wanna be with you
Security:	Public
Mood:	cold

It's real cold outside...and I have a cold or something which is making me even more cold then I should really me. Its pretty awesome.

My lips are super chapped so I've pretty much been putting chap stick on constantly...hopefully it works hehe.

Why is letting go and moving on so hard?...because I keep trying and I'm not sure if it's going to work right now.

I'm kinda sleepy...maybe a nap is in order.

Well I don't really have much else to say right now so I think I'm gonna get going.

Bye I love you...let's go sledding!

Date:	2005-11-29 20:32
Subject:	It's ok to cry...
Security:	Public
Mood:	blank

So I keep trying to write something in here, but I don't even know what to say.  I'm kind of stressing out about a lot of stuff right now. 

I just have to keep having faith that everything happens for a reason.

As crazy as everything may get at times it will be ok.

Pray...

Date:	2005-11-16 16:08
Subject:	Oh man...I have no idea haha!
Security:	Public
Mood:	random!

It's SNOWING and that makes me happy. I drew picture of snowman and christmas trees and a bunch of other fun christmas stuff today during psych. It was pretty fun. Haha and my psych prof kept saying boob and it was SO funny! He was calling people boobs and stuff...oh funny man he is.

So I've had some weird dreams lately and I am going to share them so here I go...

The first one goes like this...I'm at school and some kid I don't know...but I know in my dream...asks me to help him with his spanish homework and I agree. Which is totally and completely insane because I can't understand spanish for the life of me, but anyway...I dont have my spanish book with me so I go to this special desk where you can rent books...kinda like a library but totally not...the lady asks what year I need and I say "Spanish 3" and then she gives me the book. Well then I am suddenly sitting in spanish class and people are coming in the room and stuff. So then I get out this piece of paper that has 2 big circles on it and a few spanish words and some terrible sentences, but I can't understand what it says, but I didn't care because I was all thinking "Oh I can just turn this in and not worry about it", but then I realize everyone in the class is like kinda freaking out and stressing and that's when I find out we have do this huge presentations and have all this stuff in spanish memorized and I have NOTHING! So that's when I go up and ask my teacher if I can go find the book I borrowed because I can't find it and she says yes. So then I go walking around trying to find this book and hiding from people so I don't have to go back to class. And that's all I remember...it was pretty crazy though. I HATE spanish! hehe!

Ok dream number 2...This morning I woke up at like 8 but I didn't have to get up until 9:20 so I went back to sleep for a bit. Oh and I had some homework that I had to finish really quick before class and it was only going to take me like 5 min, but I had to type it and stuff (it's important to know that before I share my dream hehehe). Ok so in my dream I just woke up and I walked over to my computer to finish my homework and my bathroom door is right by my desk and I notice my roommate in there which was weird because I didn't hear her come in. So I say hi and turn to my computer, but it's not there! I of course start freaking out so I ask my roommate if she heard anyone come in and she said no (oh and my roommate was my roommate, but it totally wasn't her cuz it looked like this other girl from my class). So then I realize that there are all these cords going out of my room and I look out into the hall and I see my computer sitting there on another desk and then I look and see everyone else sitting in the hall too. Then some girl tells me that there was a virus so they are fixing them and I was all like but I need to type something and she told me I couldn't right now because she tried and then she told me to go downstairs to the ITC to type it but I said I couldn't because I needed to take a shower. And then suddenly my room was like this awesome apartment and there was all this food and I stopped worrying about my hw and I just sat there...it was amazing.

Haha that was boring! I want hot chocolate so bad right now...I think I'm going to have some when I go for din din in a little bit. I'm really tired and I don't know why. I got a magazine in the mail today for Maria Reyes and thats not me or my roommate...oh well! It was so cold when I was going to class today...I thought my face was going to fall off...I kept yelling "SWEET JESUS!" every time the wind would blow super hard. I might hopefully live with J next year and I REALLY hope I do because that would be sooo fun and I love her like a lot. Ok this was the most random boring thing in the world and I should stop writing and if you haven't stopped reading by now you totally should because this is stupid times like hmm 4.3 million I think. I need some new sweaters and a cute hat and gloves and lots of other warm stuff because it's frrrrrrreezing here in the IC. OK well ya'll have a wonderful day and I hope it's full of joy and snow and hot chocolate and naps and warm beds and phone calls and laughs and smiles and friends and food and all that other stuff that makes you happy! I LOVE YOU!!

Date:	2005-11-13 21:13
Subject:	SO much fun!
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted

So this weekend was tons of fun!! I got to see almost all of my favorite girls and it was AMAZING!!! I’ve missed them sooo much and I miss them all already...its insane.

Last night a bunch of us girls totally rocked out the side pony tail and I'm not going to lie...we looked HOTT!!

I learned this weekend that the nastiest smells come out of Al's butt and I am not even joking. I mean the rest of us had a few bad ones here and there, but Ms. Ali Hayes takes the award for the most disgusting smelling farts...haha I LOVE YOU AL!

I had to Jane it when I was eating my spaghetti dinner...I just took too much food. It was a sad moment.

OMG when Bob ran into Stephmarlowe's apartment I almost peed myself with fear haha it was grrrreat!

Oh and Bob-o, Albert and myself are basically the best singers...like when it comes to us singing "It's all coming back to me now". Yeah we rocked the house on that one.

So me and Bee put these HUGE bows in our hair and then wore this awesome peace signs...we were part of Steph's present! I totally looked like the little girl from Little Princess. Not the main character...but the youngest one who would lay out in the hall crying and kicking because she missed her mom…yeah I totally looked like her.

My Soulmate is the best...yeah you totally are for real hehe! I LOVE YOU

I LOVE STEPHMARLOWE!! I hope she had a grrrrrrreat birthday! Thank you for everything you are swell!

Well that was my weekend...it was fun. I LOVE YOU GUYS AND MISS YOU ALREADY!!